Today’s post was supposed to be a day in the life, but since I’m sick I’m not doing anything post worthy. So I changed up the challenge a little. This topic was supposed to be published on the 22nd day, but on that day I’ll be posting my day in the life post.
A Little Backstory On Me
I am a very private person. I choose carefully who I tell about my life and how I am feeling.
This post is very personal to me and I didn’t know if I could even post it. But here it is.
How I’ve Changed
I used to be a very open person, always spent time with my friends and went out.
About 7 years ago something changed. I didn’t wanna go out anymore and I only spent time with two people. I had my first panic attack. It was so bad, I started to miss classes at school. I wasn’t
A year later we moved to a different city. My feelings got a lot worse. I blamed everything bad that happened on myself and I hated how I looked.
I gained a lot of weight. I didn’t eat much at all. A sandwich and a few cups of coffee was my whole day meal. I weighed about 147lbs, which was considered almost overweight for my height. I was 5’2”.
I constantly thought about how people would be better without me, that I was a burden in their life.
Only healthy things I did was take long walks to clear my mind. It did help me. But every time I got back home, the bad feelings came back.
In 2013 I went to a psychologist and I was diagnosed with depression. I started taking antidepressants. At first
The thing that helped me the most was moving back to my hometown. Living alone and finally getting help.
How I Have Changed
When I began working, I started to feel wanted and like I was doing something good with my life.
Thanks to my work I started to lose weight and I now am at a normal weight.
I still have times when depression has come back. Those are the bad days for me. They can last up to a week. And when I’m happy, it’s all flowers and puppies everywhere.
Fitness has become part of my life now. And it has helped me a lot. I do feel a little bit happier in my body, but I do have a long way to go.
Every day I am learning to love myself and be good to myself. It takes a lot of time and patience.
We all have our bad days. We learn from them and make our lives easier.
How have you changed over the past few years? Leave a comment and let’s have a discussion.
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